Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I hope it brings you bliss.

Me: I hope you're happy. Now that you're choosing this.
Martin: I hope it brings you bliss.
Me: I really hope you get it.
Martin: And you dont live to regret it.
Martin: I hope you're happy, in the end.
Me: I hope you're happy.
Me & Martin: My friend.

Yes, we sang a part of Defying Gravity to each other before saying goodbye. Does that make us lame? I dont really care. Its what we do, and it was actually really sad. I love you babe, I'm so proud of you. And I'm so thankful. You're my dream come true too, I'll be here waiting for you to come home. =(


So he's shipping out in the morning, I'm feeling a little numb right now. We spent a lot of time yesterday talking, trying to laugh, staring at each other, hugging, crying and kissing. "Forever isnt enough time with you". It isnt, and yes. I want more time too. I tried my best to be strong and I was surprised at the fact that I was being the strong one and he wasnt. Then he said "every drive home, you'll be okay" and I cracked. I cant believe hes really going. This is surreal, this is insane. I dont think its fully hit me yet, I'm still awake. Waiting for him to IM me saying hes going to bed. Even though hes not online =\.

I dont know what I'm going to do.


Toothfairynotes said...

what a sad post... I hope you feel a bit better already?

Hope he comes back soon!


twinsouls888 said...

oh my, this is a very emotional post. It touches me. I'm a great fan of LOVE and I don't think that what the two of you singing to each each other is LAME, it's not.

Don't worry girl, everything happens for a reason and everything's gonna be alright. ^_^

Mocmoc said...

hey, at least you're going to experience what I've gone through for the past 5 years :) I bid you good luck! Here are some tips, Have faith, patience, love, and most importantly trust. I can't stress enough how much Trust it will take to get through this. You might say you do, but there will be obstacles for you to go through and mountains to climb.

leslielovesmakeup said...

you should have him leave you messages on your phone and you can listen to them over and over again. i had my husband call my phone before he left to africa and iraq to say he loves me and he'll be home soon. so everytime i really felt down i would listen to my voice messages. don't worry hun, just know ur not the only one feeling that way. it is really hard but your love grows this way. i couldn't take it anymore so i ranaway..to him. lol

anyways thanks for the comment, the camera is a canon rebel T1i. it's pretty awesome.

you can always feel free to email me if you need to also! i hate being sad :( lesliexyang@hotmail.com

leslielovesmakeup said...

he's been in since 2004, we met 2005..dated towards the end of that then got married in 2006. it all happened so fast but i don't regret a single thing!