Monday, June 29, 2009

Yankee Candle: Rice Milk.

I was making food earlier and I noticed a white square candle in a square glass jar. I was thinking to myself hmm, that looks a lot like my Rice Milk candle… I started trying to remember if I had seen it where I last placed it. I remember my mom had cleaned that area of the house and I didnt remember seeing it there. I tried not to freak out, I mean… what are the odds that she took out my brand new still in the box candle, right? Considering there were MANY more candles laying around the house that should could have used. Besides, it looks like any other normal candle.

I finished makin my food and went about my day. By the time I went to make dinner, I was extremely curious to find out if it was my candle. So I walked over there and flipped it upside down. Rice Milk. And it was 1/4th burned down. Now I dont think I bought her the glass jar one, I know I bought her one before, but I believe it was the pillar and she finished that one. I took it back upstairs with me and texted her.

Me: The white square candle on the fireplace, did you get it from dad’s room?
Mom: Yes.

*insert face of rage here*. WHY of ALL other candles in the entire HOUSE would she use THAT one? WHY WHY WHY!!!

Most of you must be thinking whats the big deal, its just a candle. UH NO! Its not just a candle!!


I have a huge obsession with candles. In 2006, I started working at Linens N Things. One of the things that caught my eye was the Yankee Candle Rice Milk candle and I had my eye on it for a lonnnng time while I was working there. The pillar went on sale, so I bought it for my mom and a week later, I bought the jar. A week after that, they were discontinuing the entire line and I didnt have enough money to buy more, plus they sold out quick. So the only one I have, is the jar which is now 1/4th burned down. I tried searching for back ups a few months ago and came up with nothing but tarts on ebay that were out of stock.

And that’s why I’m bummed out about this!

Sunday, June 28, 2009


Last night I was putting the finishing touches on my domain/blog (for now) and I applied for two blog playing companies and... I got approved by both!!!! This was at like, 3AM lol. I was so excited I called Martin (who fell asleep an hour and a half earlier) and left a message on his voicemail. I never leave voicemail messages but I was just so excited! I'm gonna reapply for the first one I applied to that rejected me a few months back. Now all I have to do is wait for assigments. And open a new bank account for my paypal stuff, I dont really feel comfortable linking my paypal to my main bank account. Esp after my best friend told me her brother's paypal was hacked. I'm pretty excited about this!! I hope it works out.

Gawh, its extremely hot right now. I was able to escape it yesterday but not so much today... ughh. One of the things I the most about super hot days is that my makeup melts! Like my tinted moisturizer is now all... liquid-ish. If I shake it up, I can hear the liquid inside. Poo. I had to take my UDPP's and my NYX Jumbo Pencil's out of the room because they started to sweat/melt. My Paint Pots and Gel Liners are fine, so far. I should really tidy this room up, there's so much crap everywhere its not helping with the heat + crowded-ness. But I dont know where to put all this stuff!!

If I did a blog sale would anyone be interested? A lot of stuff I have is either never opened or swatched once. Let me know if I should do one or not!

My lower back and tail bone have been aching/needing to be cracked a lot lately, its probably because I've been sitting on my ass more days in a row than I'm use to since I'm still car-less. My dad told Martin it should be done by Monday so hopefully it is, I'm making Martin drive me to Pinkberry when it's fixed! Blaaaah!

Martin just left to go to his friends house today, which is fine, I'm sure he's boiling in his room. I'll probably end up applying to a few more paid blogging sites and get my June Favs up on at least the blog later. It's too hot to get prettied up and make a video right now. Ughhh. I have a bunch of favs this month, surprisingly! I might not post all of them so I have something for next month, in case I dont have any new items for next month lol. Is that cheating? Ehhh. I also gotta get some reviews up too!

Yeahhh. K, gonna get to work lol.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Confessions of a Shopaholic.

I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic yesterday and the whole movie Martin was like "hey that's you!" "hey you do that too!" which was true. I think that movie was true, every single aspect of it. I would be lying if I said I wasnt a shopaholic. Cause I am, I have been, pretty much my whole life. But that's what happens when you parents buy you almost everything you want. There's more to it, but I'll just leave it at that. I know why I'm like this, I know what damaged me into being like this, and even though I know doesnt mean it changes anything or fixes anything.

The movie was also true in the aspect that even though you're thousands of dollars in debt, it doesnt stop you. I've ran up 5 credit cards and maxed out 2 of them in the last year and a half. All of my credit limits are over $2000. I've had mail sent to me about my credit cards but I havent been stalked by creditors. Thankfully. I have no credit cards left to use, except for one. That I share with my boyfriend and the limit to that card is over $5000, so I have to be extremely careful with it. I've already racked up $300 in 3 days. How I did that, I have no clue really. Being a shopaholic does have the ability to damage friendships, relationships with other people and with family just like any other addiction can. And that's pretty much what it is, an addiction. An addiction you cant control. Nothing to serious like doing drugs but damn, it can really fuck up your credit score!

I'm glad I saw the movie... I kinda wanted to because I thought it was going to be a funny movie about some girl who cant stop shopping. But instead became a total eye opener. Sadly I cant auction off my makeup or my clothes as easily as she did, but I can try to fix it somehow and I can try to stop while I'm still ahead. I have been getting better are resisting offers online and closing windows rather than hitting "place order".

And I'm so thankful to have someone who may not understand my addiction and of course doesnt approve of it, but supports me all the time. Who's paid off my credit card more than once even though I just keep running it back up. Honestly dont know what I would do without him.

Here's to changing my life around. There's always room for improvement.

WordPress hates me.

Been working on the domain/WordPress all day. Trying to redirect the direction its going in, pretty excited. Would be more excited if I knew how WordPress worked!!

I'm not new to HTML, I've coded a website before. I've coded LiveJournal and Xanga before. But its other blogging sites I just started using (this year) like Blogger and WordPress that I'm having trouble with. Of course, since its still all so new to me. But I feel like I'm too old to get back into doing this stuff. Does that make sense? How do you get too old to web design?!

I guess it's just because when I got SUPER into it, it was around the time of Asian Avenue and Apt107 (which I'm pissed they took down cause it took me FOREVER to code my page), when flash was still new and when AOL allowed HTML in their member profiles. Now its all about CSS, XHTML (wtf is XHTML?!), widgets, and all other sorts of unheard of things! I've been ON the internet the last five years, but I havent been ON web designing. Kinda odd, if you think about it. But then again I was sucked in by MySpace and FaceBook for all those years.

SOCiAL NETWORKS ARE EViL! I'm starting to really hate them. It takes me two hours to read though all of my FaceBook and Twitter updates. Two hours. Out of my life. To read about other peoples lives. Worth it? No, not really. There are two types of people that annoy me on the whole status thing: the ones that update every single second going to the bathroom. taking a shower. at a stop light. dog crossed the street. lady crossed the street. at Target. and then theres the ones that flood your feeds with what club they're going to/promoting/doing their "photography" at/hosting/ect. I'm seriously considering suspending my FaceBook account. Besides, its a social networking site without the networking. No one really gives a shit about what you're promoting. No one really cares about what you're doing on a social networking site. In my personal opinion, I think people care more about what you're doing when it comes to blogging than a social networking site because when you sub to a blog, its what you expect where as on a social networking site... you're really just adding friends/people you know. I would say "to keep in touch" but people hardly do that either. Friendster was cool when it first came out, people actually kept in touch, but now... people kinda just dont.

I got my "best of" Sephora thing today. I got the eyes set because I wanted the Stila Smudge Pot but I didnt wanna spend the money for a full sized version of it lol. I also got a mini Too Faced Shadow Insurance with it. I have the full size, but I dont think I want it. I'm stuck between using UDPP and ELF Studio and Mineral primers. I really kinda dont have any interest in the TFSI. But we'll see.

I have a makeup remover review I'm suppose to be doing, but I've been home all week due to not having car, meaning I have no reason to dress up, meaning I havent made a video. Well I made one yesterday about getting my DSK jewelry but just to test out my dad's webcam, which is pretty freakin good. I'm jealous, my laptop doesnt have a webcam. That's what I get for being too excited to get one though. Blaaah.

I want my car back now, I missed free Pinkberry tonight since my car's still in the shop. Boooo =(.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Another lazy day...

Love came over today.

We had Pizza Hut pasta for lunch and watched Confessions of a Shopaholic. He kept pointing out that that's me. Which I unfortunately, cant disagree with LOL. It was a cute and semi inspiring movie. After that we watched Fever Pitch and Cradle to the Grave and some Rocky movie.

Caught the news on Twitter about Michael Jackson. A friend of mine sent a test forward about his death, in a mocking way. I dont understand why people are being bitches about his death. MICHAEL JACKSON JUST DIED, show some respect! I personally am shocked at this news, I have a few favorite MJ songs. One of my lifetime favorite songs is "Butterflies", I LOVE that song! I play it all the time still.

I dont think I should even bother mentioning how much of a jerk Perez Hilton is right now, yeah. I wont. But I will mention that hes a disgrace to the gay community. Gay guys like him are the reason why people hate gays.

I've been really bad at remembering things lately, its been really irritating. Like I'll open a new browser window and totally forget why. Frustrating! Also, when I log into blogger on Mozilla, it doesnt log me in so when I leave comments on some peoples blogs, I cant cause I'm "not logged in" but it works fine on IE, and it worked fine on my dad's laptop. Maybe I just need to update my Mozilla. Even though I hate updating (and installing) things.

Ugh, I'm hungry again.

I need to quit being so damn lazy. Blah!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Changed the layout.

I changed the layout on this blog to a layout I had on my Xanga a few years back LOL. Its suppose to be Mary Had A Little Lamb. It's kinda cute, dont you think? =]

I also changed the layout to the beauty blog. I was tired of the default-ness of it all. I dont usually like using pre-made templates but I've been so out of touch with graphic design and coding that this will have to do until I get off my lazy ass and make something! I mean, I have the layout idea's in mind and I have everything I need to make the layouts... its just... making them then coding them that I have a problem with, right now lol. But I'll get to it eventually!

I tried adding AdSense to the beauty blog yesterday and it just wasnt working with me! I dont know what I was doing wrong... argh. Whatevs!

Dont you guys hate when people dont talk to you for five years then suddenly pop out of the blue and ask you to come over to see their business presentation for a pyramid scheme they just joined? Yeah, me too lol. Seriously, its so annoying because he has even replied to any of my messages, comments or even returned any of my phone calls for five years and now he expects me to go to some business meeting at his house? Uh, I dont think so! And so when I tell him that I'm car-less because I just got into an accident he replies with "I can pick you up if you'd like". Wow, thanks for asking me if I'm okay. Totally know where your head's at. I'm so tired of people using their friends for their "business". And please, if I say no twice, what in your right mind makes you think the third time you ask I'll say yes? Seriously? Get a clueeeeee!

Martin's been studying for his ASVAB all week. Hes going to be taking an extra week to study, which I dont mind. I'd rather he get the score he's aiming for on the first try then have to retake it and wait another 30 days. If he does end up in the field he wants to be in, his Tech School will be in Mississippi and I'm a little bummed out about it. All the other schools are in TX and CA, but his just had to be in Mississippi! Of course. Why did I assume it wouldnt be. Ugh. He wanted me to move there for a few months, but it would be a waste since people are telling me that he wont get much time to leave the base in the first place. So I think I'll just visit once or twice a month. Flying by myself is such a scary thought though. Plus its a 3 hour flight, landing is probably the most hardest thing for me to do, my ears literally feel like they're bleeding if I dont put my ear plugs on right. Even an hour flight can be painful. How much more for a three hour flight?! I should probably get my ears checked some time soon, and flush them again as well... they're getting saucy LOL.

Martin was talking about how he might get me a my MacBook Pro for Christmas and how he's gonna get me a gift every six months. But out of that all I heard was: MacBook. Christmas. He thought it was funny that I was more excited about that than getting a gift every six months. Eye on the prize! Haha!

A few things I want to do this summer before he leaves:
  • Monteray Aquarium
  • Santa Cruz
  • Pixar
That's about it haha. Hopefully he leaves for Basic after Sept 12th too, cause we're suppose to be watching Wicked around then. I'd hate for him to wait til November to go to Basic. We'll see though...

Saturday, June 20, 2009


Waiting at Macys. Martin's in the bathroom. I hope he didn't fall in or splode! Haha. Hella full from Quicklys. Got almost everything I needed to get done, done. Now just gotta stop at Target and Kinkos to mail out a package.

Resisting the urge to buy anything from MAC since the collections I'm looking forward to are coming out next month & I'm super broke!

I need to upload my videos.

K he's back! =)

Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Friday, June 19, 2009

Friday Five!!

1. What are your feelings about milk?
Regular milk? I dont like it. I was lactose intolerant when I was a baby. So that probably might be why. If I had to drink milk, it would be chocolate milk (and I hate chocolate so this isnt going too well lol). But I like milk flavored candy. Like you know, how Japanese candies have milk flavored? Yeah, I like those lol.

2. What are your feelings about cheese?
OMG I LOVELOVELOVE CHEESE! No seriously, I have to have cheese with everything. Almost everything, but I always get everything with extra cheese. My friends called me a rat growing up. Whatever. I loves my cheese!

3. What are your feelings about yogurt?
Its okay. Depends on what flavor it is, some of them are kinda chalky. I miss Danon Sprinklins! You know the kid one with the sprinkles on the cap? Those were my favv! Sometimes Go-Gurt. I just hate how it gets warm too fast.

4. How do you feel about soy milk?
Its okay, I havent had it a lot (according to my parents its the only milk I could drink when I was a baby though). I think I tried the vanilla one once a few years ago, it tasted like a melted milkshake.

5. How far are you from the nearest cow?
I dont know, we have a big field about a mile (or 3) that sometimes has cows. But there arent many cows in my town. Oh wait! My elemetry school had a farm! That's about a mile away from here lol!

I'm starting to look forward to these, does that make me lame? LOL.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Summer, and why I hate it.

So last night I was getting ready to take a shower. And sometimes, my mom has little baby spiders chillen next to the tub. No big deal. I either vacuum them or I spray them with air freshener and it usually kills them (cause they're that tiny). So I decide to vacuum the one I saw last night up. No big deal.

Well, I was running out of disinfectant and so I had to run out to the garage to get another one, it was around 12:45-ish AM? And I walked through a web. I didnt have the light on, so it kinda freaked me out but I figured oh well, whatever, I'm gonna shower soon anyway. So I spent a little bit of time with my dog and I was on my way back up the stairs when....

I saw something next to the bottom of the stair. And I figured oh a spider. But it was kinda... big. So I turned on the light. IT WAS A WOLF SPIDER. I inched a little closer, to get a better look and I totally FREAKED OUT. I called my dad to come kill it and so I was holding the flashlight on it while he tried to grab it with a tissue but it squeezed its way out and JUMPED ON HIS HAND. I started screaming and my dad (being Filipino) just smacked his lips and started chasing after it with the tissue. O-M-G. Freaking... OMG. Worst experience ever! HOW DID IT GET INTO MY HOUSE. That thing was HUGE and GROSS. But my dad got it and flushed it. Whew, thank goodness.

So I go take a shower and I'm walking out back to my room and I see another spider on the ceiling of the hallway headed towards my room, so of course... I woke my dad up and he smashed it.

Okay, I'm fine with seeing one spider a night. Whatever. But THREE SPIDERS IN A ROW WITHIN AN HOUR?! I dont know. That's called a bad night in my book!

And of course, when I wake up this morning. There's a spider on my wall.

Why good morning to you too spidey *sprays Raid* byebye.

I hate summer. Hate is a complete understatement for how I feel about summer. Seriously. This is insane.

And of course, when I see spiders/bugs I get into this crazy mode where I just want to clean my room/the whole house. UGH.

Besides that, I also hate summer because I dont deal well with hot days. And its hard for me to sleep then I wake up all sweaty. Gross.

Monday, June 15, 2009


I know, I know. I suck at updating. I've been busy running around everywhere lately and getting all sorts of things worked out.

Last week the boyfriend & I got into a car accident, it wasnt anything major. It's gonna take 9 days to fix my car though. But we're both fine. Of course, as you know, all the hassle that comes with a car accident and just how irritating it all is. So we've been busy with that.

Also getting paper work for my boyfriend done, all over the Bay Area.

We went to Oakland to get some papers and he took me to all of the places he grew up. And it was... nice. To finally have an image to attach to the stories he told me. He brought me to his old school where his childhood best friend Chris tried to teach him how to back flips and I know he was reminiscing, it was kind of heartbreaking. He found out his friend passed away a few months ago, so yeah. He also brought me to a library he use to go to all the time (and we saw this 8 year old log on to his MySpace seriously?!), he took me to this center that had a basketball court and he took me to the sidewalk where he sat when he snapped his arm in half. It was nice, and itwasnt as bad as I thought it would be. He also took me to his old (haunted) house.

I personally hate doing paper work. I hate running around getting paper work, things signed, I just hate doing anything like this. And he pulled me close and was like "I know you hate doing this kind of stuff but Icouldnt do this without you, you're my happiness". And that, is what makes all this irritation worth it.

After that we had lunch in Emeryville since there's no malls or anything in Oakland. And had a nice little talk. It's nice that we're each other's best friend's and that we talk about things that best friends usually talk about. We've been together for five years but we can still talk and joke around for hours. We stopped by Lush for literally a minute. Then we headed to his little sisters graduation!! I cant believe she's already graduating high school! When I met her, she was 13! Insane.

A bunch more of paper work and paying bills last week... I also finally got my MAC Violet pigment! I'm in love with that pigment! I seriously need to cool it on the spending, then again I say that... all the time and never do it. *sigh*.

Yesterday was relaxing. We went to Concord because we found out there's a Quickly's there! We're in Concord all the time but never knew there was a Quickly's! Now we dont have to drive to South SF! After that, we went to the mall really quick, since they were gonna close in an hour and a half anyway. Then headed back home and we cleaned out the car since my dad's gonna take it to the shop soon.

Martin stayed over for awhile and had me eat dinner with him and we watched tv. Then we watched My Best Friend's Wedding since I keep hearing about it but I've never seen it. It was a pretty... good movie. I mean, it had good points lol. After that, spent some time with my cat & dog. My mom thinks my cat's sick, but they dont take them to the hospital and so I was playing with my cat and she hissed at me!! What the heck! Meanie. My dog is my baby, I love him to bits!

Martin came out to get me and we watched more tv, cause he wanted to watch tv with me and I was like "aww did you put it on The Food Network for me??" and he was like "yeaaa I was waiting for you! But you took too long!" awwww. And we ate some more before he left.

I loves him!

Dont you hate when people tell you dumbass information about things you dont care about but when you respond they give you the dumbest response? Its like, why did you even bother telling me YOUR stupid info in the first place? Like I care? Wtf. UGH, whatever.

Oh! I made an order on NYX cause they have these new palettes out that are on their pre-sale sale for $4.50 and when they put them on the site, they'll be going for $9 so I bought a few. And I had told Martin and he goes...

"Baby.... are you buying things?!"

Right when I hit "submit" LMFAO, how does he ALWAYS know!!! What is going on!!!! Kinda creepy and kinda funny LOL.

Also MAC is having their sale tomorrow! I've already made a list so I'm not panicking through out the time I make my order =D. I'm excited.

I know, I know, I need to stop shopping!

I've got some new idea's and some changes going on with my youtube channel and my beauty blog. So I'm a bit excited about that!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Friday Five!

I know, its Sunday. But I still wanted to do this!

1. What’s something you will not eat unless you also have ketchup?
Eggs, Hot Dogs, Bacon & Cheddar mashed potatos & Hash browns. A lot of stuff taste good only if it has ketchup!

2. What’s something you will not drink unless it is served on ice cubes?
Cherry Limeade.

3. What’s something you will not eat unless it is served between slices of bread?
I dont know, I pick apart my sandwiches all the time, so I dont really care lol.

4. What’s something you will not drink unless you have a straw?
Soda in a restaurant cup or drive thru cup.

5. What’s something else you will not eat except under very specific circumstances?
Green Onions, I guess. I hate green onions but depending on what I eat, I'll deal with it. Like Miso soup for example.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


Yesterday was Phil's day in Frisko. The meet up was at 5PM at Pier 39 by the seal's. Why by the seal's? No idea.

So we headed to Frisko a little late cause I suck at waking up early. But we had lunch and I had a loaded potato and Martin had Rubio's. Got to look around the mall for a bit then Martin wanted to walk to Pier 39. So we walked. From Metreon to Pier 39. It went by pretty fast, I mean we always walk from Pier 1 to Metreon. Or Pier 1 to 39 or down to the beach but from Metreon to 39? Not so much. AND 5 F line's passed us! Lame! I got to go in T-Mobile cause I wanna upgrade my SideKick08 to the new SideKickLX09 since it plays youtube and its on a faster connection. A WAY faster connection. I got to play with one and it's pretty freakin sweet. Its a little bit bigger than my cute SideKick08 but the faster connection is SO sweet! It would be $114 for me to upgrade, and $114 for my next 3 billing cycles. Which is coo but still kinda sucks... ugh.

We got to the seal's with 15 minutes to spare. Hung around some people with a guy who had a big sign saying "DeFranco Nation". Then Phil finally shows up!!!!! For those of you who dont know who Philip DeFranco is, he's sxephil on youtube. He usually covers the news on his "show". I've been watching his channel for two years, and at one point the only reason why I still even went on youtube was to watch his show. So it was pretty exciting for me to meet him!

I'm sad I didnt get a picture with him cause as you can see, there was a BUNCH of people there and EVERYONE kept SWARMING him! I finally got in front of him and about five people just stood in front of me. It was so fuckin annoying!!! The crowd finally started to die down and they decided to go eat at some random restaurant and I was so annoyed by then I decided to just leave. We were in that new Players grill that use to be RTA... and Martin saw that the DDR machine had a free game on it and it turned out to be a doubles game so we both played, just since it was free. After the first song, Martin goes "look behind you" and I look behind me and Phil was watching us play!! I kinda hope it isnt but is in his video for yesterday. But yeah.... after that we left. I wanted to get a pic with him, but it was just impossible!

We had dinner at Wipe Out and a nice lonnng talk. I love long nice talks over dinner with him! Then we went home, hella tired and shit.

HOPPER: yay i got tiger wood with wii motion plus!!
OPPER: but i'm at work so i can't play it =(
siin: ?
HOPPER: nm lol

Why do people do that? Seriously. Why are you going to gloat about a game I know nothing about nor do I even care about and when I clearly state I dont know what it is, you go "nm" seriously. And when YOU say something all they say is "uh ok" like damn, can you make it ANY more OBVIOUS you dont care about what other people say? FUCKIN IRRITATING. People really need to quit. Talking. Seriously.

Today we gotta get some paper work done, according to Martin's file he's 7. I dont know how the fuck that happened, but its such a hassle to fix. UGH.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Wait, what are you trying to say?!

Martin: I sing to myself....
Me: aww
Me: im busy'd
Martin: I know your busy but can you watch this for me pretty please....
Me: Only cause you said pretty please.
Me: What are you trying to say!!!!
Martin: =D
Me: I love you boo!
Me: You're the fuckin best.
Me: I'm blogging this
Martin: *heart*
: How do you use my song against me

I cant wait to marry his silly butt! LOL.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Pandora Radio.

Martin's been buggin me about checkin out Pandora Radio. So I made a station with Linkin Park and they were playin my jams. Not just LP, but Switchfoot, Nickleback, ect. It was hot! So I made another station with Donell Jones and I'm just slowinnnn it down up in here. So fuckin relaxing!! I love Donell Jones! He got that kinda voice you just take a candle lit bubble bath to, ya dig?

Okay okay, this site is the shit. I love the sound quality on it. Its CD quality, they play songs within the genre of the singer/song you pick. Its pretty spiffy.

Period's make me sleepy, Its only 1AM and I'm ready to knock out!

I was on Twitter watchin Bow Wow & Soulja Boy on blogtv... watchin Tila's grind video hahaha. It was hella funny, nice to know celeb's are people just like us too. Esp Bow Wow, I've been a fan of his since Bounce With Me. Haha!

So I went shopping with the bestie yesterday. Gooooooooodness! Did some damage at Target, not as much as I usually do, so I was happy about that. But then she took me to CCO. Oh goodness, I fell in love. I didnt know the CCO closer to my house (AHHH THEY PLAYIN NE-YO!) was bigger than the one away from my house!! And they had SO MUCH MORE selection! I went nuts! I was all over the place. I was so so so happy to find MAC Claire de Lune eyeshadow!! Hello, Twilight anyone? LOL. They also had some FLIRT! And some Grass Roots (huge Kohls fan too). So that was a nice surprise.

I had fun with the bestie. She's leavin for the P.I. I'm gonna miss her!! Who am I gonna talk to for the next three weeks?!

So much shit to do today... busy week too. Ahh! Sa'll good though. Gonna finally cop me a Dyno shirt tomorrow. Cause its about time!

Still waitin on my MARK rep kit and my MARK haul, hopefully it'll get here tomorrow. I'm super excited for it. Gotta make a few more videos (even though I havent even uploaded the ones I already have). My blog and youtube arent synced, which gets confusing after awhile... bah!

Still gotta make the layout for the makeup site. Yeah, about that... and still gotta code the layout for the other site... yeah... about that too... haha I'm slackin, I know! But I aint been home and I had a phatty headache yesterday. So.... blaaah!

I'll jump on it though!

I just called AE to see if I could pay my credit card at the store and the operator was like "no there isnt any additional payment method Ms. Aba... Hazel" I giggled. She was obviously tired, she kept correcting herself. I hope I made her night a little better.

Thursday, June 4, 2009


I woke up about half an hour or so after I planned to wake up. Hanging out with the bestie today before she leaves for the Philippines.

I started my period last night right before I went to sleep. Which was fine, at least I was prepared and not rudely surprised when I woke up this morning.

I did end up sneezy all morning. UGH! Allergies are so tricky. One day you have them, the next week you dont. Then you do. Then you dont. What the heck is going on?!

I'm waiting for my MARK rep starter kit to come in today, hopefully it comes in today! My MARK haul is suppose to be coming in tomorrow. I hope everything comes in on time! Gotta update the makeup blog some more... I like waiting until I get a bunch of comments, a string on entries usually doesnt get many comments. And comments make me happyyyy!

Hm, I guess that's all I've got to say lol. I'm trying to get back into blogging. Even if it is just a scatter of random entries.

Got an appointment tomorrow with the USAF, also got to pay a few bills at the mall... hopefully we'll get done in time to make it to the appointment. I need to stop shopping and start sorting through things considering I might be moving sooner than I think... and we all know how much I love to procrastinate... *sigh*.

I tried Sims3 yesterday. Totally dont know if I like it. Eep. I dont know... it's just so... different. I mean Sims and Sims2 were different as well. I guess I'm just so use to something and now I'm like "whoa whoa, wtf is this?!" you know? Its gonna take some getting use to. That's for sure.

I have a thing for waking up and doing laundry as soon as I wake up... I better go check on that. I always get so lazy when it comes time to get it out of the dryer. Blah!

Chasing dreams.

I've been so busy lately! Mostly with chasing my dreams. Its such a huge challenge for me, but I'm actually getting through it pretty well. I know I can get this done. I know I can get there... and even on the nights I'm discouraged, when I wake up the next morning, all of it is still worth it.

Every single subscriber, follower, comment, new friend... makes my day. And its just amazing how something so small from someone you dont even know can make your day. And its such a rewarding feeling.

I told myself I wasnt gonna be like everyone else in this town. I dont want to be like everyone else. I dont wanna hussle, I dont wanna chase money. I want to be happy. I want to do something makes me happy. My dreams wont pay off tomorrow or next week or next month or in the next few months, but it doesnt matter because it still makes me happy. Even if I dont reach finish, this journey has still made me happy and at least I know that I'm not as hopeless as I thought I was.

My life is changing, quicker than I expected it to. And as much as I wanted it to, I have to admit... I'm nervous. I'm excited but I'm also nervous.

Today five years ago was the day he got on one knee in front of dozen's of people under the Disneyland castle and proposed to me. Silly nineteen year old's!

I still love him, with all of my heart. And I still say yes.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I'm horrible at updating!

I'm online everyday and I'm on blogger, everyday but yet... I dont update!! What's up with that! Am I that lazy that pointing and clicking is about as far as I can go? I try to blog before midnight since I hate starting an entry with yesterday. Is it just me? It might be...

Anyway, what has been going on?

Sunday I watched UP in 3D with the boyfriend, he wanted to see it and he wanted to see it in 3D lol. I thought it was gonna be boring, but since I'm a huge Pixar fan, I watched it. OMG, first of all... saddest intro to a movie ever. I swear. I was about to start bawling in that packed movie theater at least three times! It was so cute, cause through the whole sad part, Martin would squeeze my hand. I know he wants to make sure I make it to Disney, and it melts my heart that he does. I'll get there, dont worry babe! After I think we went to Wal Mart cause I ran out of Broccoli Velveeta's, those things are delicious. I bought the last 3 haha. I hope they'll restock these cause OMG, delicious.

Monday which was yesterday duh. I'm all digging in my memory like what was Monday...? haha. We went to the mall, he went to the gym and I tried to go shopping, but I couldnt find anything I wanted. I know, insane. I bought everything I wanted at the mall already! I bought 3 MAC paint pots last week, I took another look at the Style Warriors and nothing screamed out to me, I forgot the brush from BE that I wanted to return, I have too many eyeliners/brushes/eyeshadow.... haha. Darn! I forgot to look for the book I wanted though. Lammmeeee! I did get some of the new Victoria Secret Beauty Rush dome eye shadows. Only because I had a free $10 gift card to spend. I bought 6 since it was 6/$15 and I got one free, so heyyy! And that was about it. The guy who works at the bakery I always eat at gave me a 15% off discount on my meal yesterday, weird. Buuuttt I'm not complaining! Ended up talking to Sammie for about an hour, which was nice. I was trying to buy her eyeliner but she was being difficult lol.

And today we went to get gyoza's cause I'm just way too addicted to them lol. Then we went to Target and I got SIMS3!! HELL YEAH!! FINALLY!! OMG. I bought the demo back in November when I went shopping with Joey. I ended up getting the collectors edition even though it was freakin $70. But I wanted the cool USB drive and the SimCard lol! Besides, I think I shoulda got it cause I am a Sims fan! I also got Hes Just Not That Into You cause I've been craving to watch it for a month. I was sad to see that Confessions of a Shopaholic wasnt out yet. I SO want to watch it! We also headed down to the military offices. I knew they werent booked! Hmm...

I also recorded like five videos today. I did my random's haul video and when I was putting everything away I forgot to mention my V.S and my Cherry Culture haul! ARGHHH! Dont you hate when that happens?! Ah, I'll save it for next, I guess! So I should be uploading some videos soon. Both my camera's died on me during video filming lol. I hate when that happens too. I keep forgetting that filming takes up more battery! Trying to think of what I want my site to look like, drawing out navigation and stuff like that... trying to figure out how to advertise my shop, which is really hard.

I dont see why I keep giving myself all these off the wall challenges and sit there like "I cant do this, I cant do this, there's no way I can do this" but yet I end up doing it. *sigh*. As a business major, I think being a MARK rep would be a very helpful experience. I just gotta think it through.

You miss 100% of the shots you dont take.