I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic yesterday and the whole movie Martin was like "hey that's you!" "hey you do that too!" which was true. I think that movie was true, every single aspect of it. I would be lying if I said I wasnt a shopaholic. Cause I am, I have been, pretty much my whole life. But that's what happens when you parents buy you almost everything you want. There's more to it, but I'll just leave it at that. I know why I'm like this, I know what damaged me into being like this, and even though I know doesnt mean it changes anything or fixes anything.
The movie was also true in the aspect that even though you're thousands of dollars in debt, it doesnt stop you. I've ran up 5 credit cards and maxed out 2 of them in the last year and a half. All of my credit limits are over $2000. I've had mail sent to me about my credit cards but I havent been stalked by creditors. Thankfully. I have no credit cards left to use, except for one. That I share with my boyfriend and the limit to that card is over $5000, so I have to be extremely careful with it. I've already racked up $300 in 3 days. How I did that, I have no clue really. Being a shopaholic does have the ability to damage friendships, relationships with other people and with family just like any other addiction can. And that's pretty much what it is, an addiction. An addiction you cant control. Nothing to serious like doing drugs but damn, it can really fuck up your credit score!
I'm glad I saw the movie... I kinda wanted to because I thought it was going to be a funny movie about some girl who cant stop shopping. But instead became a total eye opener. Sadly I cant auction off my makeup or my clothes as easily as she did, but I can try to fix it somehow and I can try to stop while I'm still ahead. I have been getting better are resisting offers online and closing windows rather than hitting "place order".
And I'm so thankful to have someone who may not understand my addiction and of course doesnt approve of it, but supports me all the time. Who's paid off my credit card more than once even though I just keep running it back up. Honestly dont know what I would do without him.
Here's to changing my life around. There's always room for improvement.